July 16, 2017
Just barely the 16th here... Summer is going along nicely. My husband has been working really hard in the yard, it's huge and he is trying to tame it and make it a nice place for us all to be. There is a rather large patio right outside my bedroom that was just full of garbage, an old hot tub, really just wasted space. He got rid of the hot tub, cleaned it all off, made a little fence with a gate, a safe place for the puppies. He also made me a mini rose garden and planted wild flowers as well. It's really nice. I found a fire table on a clearance and some really nice chairs and now we sit out and roast marshmallows in the evenings when it's not too hot. It's really a nice space.
Girls are done with the summer course, so now at home. They have been looking for summer jobs but nothing coming up yet. That is okay with me, let them be kids a while longer. I worked every summer starting at about 15 and I missed out on a lot of the ease and freedom summer should bring. I am glad to just spend some time with them too...
Puppies are growing like crazy, I just love them. Work is insane right now. I was averaging about 24 to 30 hours a week. Now I am averaging 40 to 55 hours a week. At least it is working from home, which I love and I can work at night when everyone is asleep too. And it is helping to pay for everything in the yard too, I suppose.
The two year anniversary of no romance here at home is quickly approaching. I do not know how I feel about it all. Last time there was a long stretch, the closer the anniversary came, the more upset I became. Now I think I am in some kind of level of acceptance of how things are. We are friendly for the most part. I still try to hug him although that doesn't help me to ease any of my loneliness, but at least I am trying. I just remain friendly and supportive, it keeps things even and helps to alleviate any swinging emotions on my part. Maybe I am becoming a little more numb about it all. I don't think that is a bad thing.
I should go to bed, work will be beckoning in the morning...