|A Mood/A Different Mood|
August 3, 2007
I'm in a foul mood today. I let something get under my skin but at least I have controlled it to some degree -- letting it only make me sad and make me feel the need to pull back in some regards. I consider that a victory of sorts -- instead of letting it ignite my anger. It would have been very easy for me to let my temper get the better of me and come out firing with every intent doing as much damage as possible when it wouldn't have been appropriate and would have caused more problems than the initial situation was worth. Better to let it drop and not let it or the source have any power over me. I don't need the aggravation.
Of course, I am aggravated at myself to begin with ... for letting me affect me in the first place. It is something after all that I have laughed at myself about at one point or another. I just need to find something to distract me and let my thoughts regroup. Perhaps letting this headache escape as well.
You know...you people can be a pain in the ass. I get into a nice sour, fuck the world mood and you people come along to ruin it. I mean I had messages coming in so fast that I could almost start to believe that I am popular around here.
Thanks for all the PM's, emails and other contacts that showed your concern. I still owe a few of you replies for that and other reasons. I have to admit that some of them were pretty memorable.... although it might have been better in something other than ASCI text.
Anyways, I am feeling better...although I still need to address the cause of it...if only to set the stage straight.
I have to admit that a late afternoon conversation with QB did me some good. She understood almost exactly where I was coming from -- I say almost cause there was some male ego/pride thing going on in it to. I also think it had the added benefit of clarifying a thing or two between us, which is always good. Cause I want things to be crystal. Hopefully, the time until she can chat again will come soon. It's my favorite way to spend time these days.
Other than that, my day has been pretty lazy. I have been puttering around my room some, playing a little Guild Wars and Wow and then took a long, long afternoon nap. I just need to be sure to hit my meds before it get too late and keep getting rest so I am ready for work on Monday.
Although, I can't be too lazy. I have a few things that I need to take care of over the next day or so...bank, bills, and running some trash out to the dump. I get that all taken care of and I am going to feel like I am in a much better place. Plus, I will be a heck of a lot happier with my quarters -- although not quite at 100%.