|A Bit More Relaxed|
February 4, 2014
Today has been a lot more relaxed than of late. I didn't have anywhere to go today and there was only a minimal number of things to do around the house. It was enough to keep me busy and from my personal projects, but I don't really mind. I was happy to have you the evening to just vegetative and watch a couple movies (After Earth and Cowboys & Aliens). It's a good thing to catch up a bit and free my mind from everything that has been going on of late.
As always, there are the concerns with Ma Asher, ranging from her hospital stays & appointments to her regular physical care & hygiene. I am caregiver, social secretary, maid and cook. I am growing into the role Subsequently, I end up taking care of him as well, but unlike my mother, he shows no gratitude or consideration. He's become a slovenly, unkempt bastard that leaves a trail behind him. He can't even bother to pick up his trash or do the simplest little task without prodding. I love the man as my father but don't hold much respect for him as a human being. It's frustrating as hell to see him this way and it's getting worse as he does less & less with each new matter.
I have to admit that my respect for my mother kicked up a notch when she came home from the hospital. While she was still sitting in her wheelchair, she looked at my father and pointed a finger at him, " I am going to out live you." It was a statement full of piss, vinegar and determination. I was happy to hear it and I hope she works more now to make it true.
I also hope I can take it to heart...at least long enough to see if there is a reason for me to be here.