|Happy Birthday To Me|
November 12, 2014
I wasn't feeling very celebratory when I got up this morning. In fact, I was feeling downright sorry for myself. Here it is, my birthday, and I don't even have my birthday cake hat!! How can I possibly celebrate without it!?
I still don't have the rest of my stuff, either. I spoke the moving co yesterday, and they supposedly have a driver.....but no idea when he might actually be driving down this way. I called again this morning and left a message.
On Monday, I actually went out of the house and DROVE! We went to the drugstore to get Mom's antibiotics (she's got bronchitis). Then we went to Beall's Outlet (it's like TJ Maxx or Marshall's). They didn't have much, but I did find a package of underwear, thank goodness.
Other than that little outing, I haven't left the house since I got here. Brother goes out every afternoon, but hasn't invited me along, or offered to show me where things are or anything. He just goes along doing his own thing, pretty much oblivious to everyone and everything else.
Mom is slowly getting better, but needs to take it easy. Yesterday, I spent the morning making sauerbraten for my birthday dinner, cause she's not up to cooking. At least it gave me something to do for the day.
This is what I expected when I decided to retire and move to FL. I know I haven't even been here a week yet, and I need to give myself more time to feel 'at home'.
I've decided to be grateful for what I DO have, and to be happy. My stuff will eventually arrive, Mom will get better, and we'll be busy. So, for right now, I should enjoy the 'down time' and give myself time to grieve over Panache, and absorb all the changes.
I have a lot more to be grateful for than I have to complain about, and that in itself is something to be grateful for. And it's my birthday.....and that's worth celebrating, even without my hat!