November 23, 2014
Things are better than they were on Fri. Nothing more was said about Brother's and my misunderstanding. He made dinner last night, and then later, surprised Mom and I with mugs of hot chocolate.
Mom said she talked to him and tried to encourage him to be more patient and understanding. We'll see.
I finally got my health insurance bill yesterday. Nothing like cutting it close, especially as they are closed Thurs & Fri for Thanksgiving.
We're going to my godmother's niece's for Thanksgiving. Assuming I can get into the car.....Brother owns a Pontiac Aztec, and it's too high for me to climb into. I bought a stepstool (amazon), and I'm hoping that will help.
I'm also waiting for my car insurance cards to come, so I can go register my car.
Unpacking has been put on hold, since mostly what's left to unpack are the dolls and items for the curio cabinets. We want to move one cabinet from the living room to the great room, so until Jim (the handyman) comes to move the furniture, we can't unpack them. OK by me.
I still have pictures and such to unpack too, but I have so little wall space, I don't know what I'll hang or where.
So, I guess things are getting better. I keep telling myself they are.....that little by little things are working themselves out. But I still feel horribly sad and lost. I miss Panache most of all of course, but I miss everything else too.
Mom asks me if I'm glad I'm glad I'm here.....and I can't tell her NO......and it's not that I'm not glad.....I'm just homesick.
I'm sure in time I'll stop whining about it....and I'm sorry if I sound like a broken record or a spoiled brat. This is really the only place I can vent, though.....I can't even tell my friends over the phone, because I'm not alone in the house, and I don't want Mom to overhear.
And it's not that things are terrible here. They're really not. There are things I really like about being here....like the lake (even though it hasn't been nice enough to sit outside lately, I can still see it from the windows). And most of the time, we all get along fine. And even when we don't (like Fri)......it never lasts long. It all blows over and we're fine together.
So, I'm really OK here.....even if I am still homesick.