July 31, 2002
feeling: a little slow
I have been very busy these last few weeks. School and court, the foundation I work on and just life in general. I have had a hard time getting back here and writing my thoughts and feelings down because of one thin or another but I felt I needed to start again in order to focus myself back on what is important in my life again. I am still seeing the wife. Things are pretty much the same as before. I don't really see any changes that will ever make me get back together with her. She is a nice person and I do enjoy her company but she likes things the way she likes them and there is not much room for any comprimise in her life. I have to say I like things the way they are too. It feels good not having to clean up after her mistakes, only haveing to worry about my own. My son and I are getting along well and even though we don't see each other much when we do it is nice and we have fun. I no longer feel the distance between us that I once felt.
I am going tomorrow to plan the rest of my college classes. I need to get a better idea of what I need and what direction I am going. I need to get it on paper so I can see the things I have to do. I also need to get back in the gym. I kind of fell off the wagon in terms of my work outs while I have been going to school and court but I will start tomorrow to get back on track.
Other than that I have been pretty good. Grades look good for the classes I took and the next classes are, I hope, going to be a little less writing intensive. the Grand Jury has been a real chore. I am seeing far too many bad things. I have one month to go and then I will be done and hopefullly I will never have to do it again. I know that I only see a small segement of society but it still is bad to see them. I know they exist and need to be delt with but I would like someone else to do it now. I just keep reading and let it slide off my back once the case is over and I seem to do fine for the most part.
Things I am thankful for:
My new desk.
Air conditioning.......it has been in the 90's and very humid.
My studio is looking more and more like a home each day.