June 27, 2012
Been watching that sneaky bastard across the street take care of his flowers. I see him trim them in the morning. They are 5 times the size of mine and they where planted at the same time in the same kind of dirt and planters by the same people and watered with the same water..........I think he is sneaking back at night and peeing in my flowers.......bastard.
Ok with the exposure of my flower inadequacy I am ready to write about the day........bastard.
Working out in the morning I am in a gym that has windows on two sides. The windows face a park with a low area about the size of a football field. The low area is all grass and surrounded by trees. In the mornings when the sun begins to rise the cool air pools in this area and forms fog from the dew evaporating on the grass. As the sun clears the trees it lights this fog with a beautiful gold glow. At the same time the dew on the grass reflects the light and you see a million sparkles in the gold of the fog. It only lasts a short time and does not happen every day but once in a while I am treated to this special moment. Nice thing to see and experience.
Work out was good. I walked 1.6 miles which is a far cry from the 20 feet I could barley walk in December. It took me 40 minutes but at least I walked it. Maybe by this time next year I will feel pretty normal? I am hoping.
Lots of crap swrilling around in this poor head. Stuff from the EMDR. Some I noticed now does not carry the gut wrenching physical response it once did. That is the point of EMDR. Remove the reaction by bringing it into the light of today. Still sometimes it feels like a tornado in my head.
Things I am thankful for:
Sales good this week
Workout good this morning
Unexpected breakfast with friends