July 24, 2012
Well the doc apt. was a bust. Still have no idea what is happening. They do know the muscle is degrading and but no idea why. Sent me last night to the hospital for more blood tests and home to bed. Want me to see an infectious disease specialist, neurologist and see what they say. They even asked me if I frequented prostitutes.......I thought it was a joke at first but they where serious. So still at square one.
Woke up to rain this morning. Nice. We need it badly but it is also restful for me. Had a short walk and in a few will open the shop for the day.
Had something happen yesterday that shook me up a bit. Pam tried to call me a few times. From my bodies physical reaction I know that I need to keep her out of my life period. I didn't answer the phone. I know my son is safe because I talked with him earlier so there is nothing she has to say that concerns me. Hopefully that is the last I will hear from her. I know there will be times we will cross paths but the boundaries are set so that will be fine. I was not trying to be mean by not answering. Just that with the way my stomach clenched up I know I need to stay clear of her. I owe her nothing.
Well off to work and see what the day has in store......
Things I am thankful for:
friends that care
doing what is right for me