December 14, 2016
Feeling: little sore but good
Productive day yesterday. Pushed a little too hard. Kind of paying today.
World is good. Makes me laugh that so many people are still so angry about Trump being President elect. I would hate to see our system be damaged by people that didn't get their way. They think they are looking at the big picture but that isn't the case. Sad
It snowed all day yesterday. So beautiful. Today it's pretty much all gone downtown but that is normal. Ground still isn't frozen and the city is always a few degrees warmer than the surrounding area. It made me feel good to see it and brought back nice memories from past times watching it snow.
Tried to communicate with my son today. Doesn't seem to be interested in talking. He can be an ass sometimes. I sent him some Christmas gifts and, since he's working today, wanted to make sure his neighbor snagged them when they arrived. UPS drops them at the door and leaves them which amazes me but it's true. No response. I figure he's embarrassed he didn't get me something. I never expect anything. Learned a long time ago to not expect.
This brings up an interesting idea. The whole idea of expectations. Can a life be built without expecting anything? Not sure. I mean you expect to see tomorrow. You expect to be paid for work. Let me reign this in a bit. Can a life be built without expecting other people to support your own emotional needs and wants? Still not really the point I'm trying to explore but closer. I still expect my son to respond to me but from time to time he doesn't and I allow it to hurt my feelings. I'm not sure I can do it any other way. I don't expect him to buy me a gift for Christmas. I never expect gifts from anyone. I don't know.....it's confusing to me. LOL meaning I don't want to think about it right now.
Things I am thankful for: