December 27, 2016
Lots of dreams the last few days. Dreams about loss......dreams about being alone. I didn't understand them until this morning. That place between being awake and sleep when you can hear and think but still see that dream unfolding in your minds eye? That's the place I understood. Even though there's no love or even respect for Pam I still feel a sense of loss from the time spent and the fact I didn't see her this Christmas. Sounds stupid but that's the way the mind....or at least my mind works. I'm sure not seeing my son added to the angst in the dream but loss is loss. So I shake it off and see the sun is shining today. Do my stretches and get my day going.
Feeling a little scattered but that is also normal feelings for me when I'm working through something. Just accept it and again move on. I don't like the feeling but it's kind of like that huge burst of adrenaline you get just before a fight. It's part of the aftermath of the event. It will pass.
Well better get my day on the road. Glasses to make and things to do.
Things I am thankful for:
I can move pretty good this morning
Sun is out after a few gray days
how life has changed for me