July 16, 2017
Today the kids are 18 1/2. It's their half birthday. *sigh*. I'm reminded more and more about the fact that gone are the days when they needed or wanted to spend time here. We cautious enough to make their own decisions and then sneak a glance back to make sure I approved and thought it was safe.
The relationship is starting to shift, the decisions are being made and when I'm not sure there is a quick answer of , ' well I'm 18 ...and I can do what I want." *sigh*
The concern is not of control, but of guidance. How do I logically get an illogical emotional mess of a teenager to understand that?
In just a months time, I will not know everything they are doing, I will not know the turmoil and strife or angst they go through on a day to day basis. I know this is part of the circle of life. I know this.
I used to think in a way humans are burdened with the emotional connection. And this two days ago we caught a fox who had been eating the chickens, and when his fate was sealed, he cried out. And his friends in the bushes cried out. What if we have it all wrong and the Disney movies were right, everything has emotional connection?