|With a Blue Window|
May 16, 2018
I was definitely in a blue mood yesterday, and I'm trying to pinpoint exactly why. I slept almost all day from 9 a.m. until midnight, after having woken up at 6 a.m.
The first culprit could be from eating too much protein over the past two days. I write everything I eat down, and the past two days I had 3 times as much protein that is considered "normal" on each day.
Cause #2 could be from starting off the day by eating a packet of fruit flavored tic tacs. The only sugar I normally eat is from honey, and I bought the tic tacs on a whim when I saw they were listed as having 0 calories, which obviously was a marketing lie/labeling loophole, as the first ingredient listed on the back was sugar. So maybe that set me off.
The third wouldn't have been the cause, but it seems like it could have added to the misery and snowballed it further.
Just a simple dream about my ex and how it was good in the beginning, but then it fast-forwarded to the end of the relationship, where things had deteriorated and I hated myself and her in the process. In the dream I had corrupted her as well.
With dreams nowadays it can take me a full ten minutes upon awakening to fully digest the emotional impact they've had on me, and to realize that it all was just a dream.
It rained yesterday as well, and is supposed to rain for about a week, off and on. I've never felt affected by the rain though and tend to like it. I checked the atmospheric pressure for the day as well, just to make a mental note to keep checking that from day to day to see if it is having an effect on my mood.
So I spent most of the day in bed, so much so that my back started tightening up. Now it's almost 3 in the morning and I'm going to go lie down again for a bit.