December 28, 2004
Well, I am back to the grind -- pushing to get several of my projects completed in a timely manner. Unfortunately, I am one of the unlucky few at work this week. It seems like better than half the company is out for the holidays. I literally keep expecting to see tumbleweeds blowing around the building because it is so empty. You can hear the occasional phone ring or a muffled conversation from some distant cubicle. The scary thing is that itís not just here. I've left for work like 20 minutes late the past couple of days and made it in handily. This ghost town affect has to be playing out in a lot of offices around here.
It's a good thing for me. The few distractions are letting me move ahead on my projects, which is good because I have 3 major ones to release next week. However, itís getting difficult to stay on task at times. With so many opportunities to slack off, it is too easy for the mind to start wandering.
My holiday weekend came to a non--climactic end -- a bit of a let down after my day with Satan's family. Sunday, against what proved my better judgment, I joined the kids on a jaunt up to T's brother's place for their gift exchange. I did get a couple cooking related gifts on top of the ones that I got from the kids. I'm fighting the temptation to put them away for when I move out. Other than that, some finger food and a Raven's game on the tube, the only thing I can remember on this point is the hoopla of four kids running around with their new gewgaws. It left me wore out and fighting a pretty good headache.
I can't blame that all on the kids. I think part of my stress was the general tension that I feel when I am around T's family. In the past, she's pushed so hard to have me considered part of the family, and now, when I am trying to step back, it makes me feel a little uncomfortable. Plus, I was a little road weary from the run up to Jersey the day before as well as from all the current insanity at work. I think I see a vacation coming up some time in the near future -- say late February or March.
Maybe I should actually plan to take a real vacation this time -- rather than run off to see family. I don't think I have ever really had one since I became an adult. Definitely something to consider.