October 27, 2018
Today proved to be an exceedingly lazy day. I was awakened at 10.30 by a random survey call and a pounding headache. I rolled over and went back to sleep until the same random caller called again at 4 pm. Fortunately, the headache was gone by then and dragged myself out of bed. I set about cleaning the kitchen, collecting some trash , and starting to prep dinner. Dinner was fairly simple -- a pair of eye round steaks that I marinated, roasted potatoes, and baby lima beans. I was nice filling dinner and was topped by a piece of my belated birthday cake. Finishing up dinner, I cleaned the kitchen and fed the deer before retiring to my room. It's going to be a rather quiet evening -- the most energetic thing on my agenda is probably writing this entry.
I am stressing out because of the situation with L. Her problems with abdominal adhesions and her remaining ovary came back this past week. She ended up in the emergency room doubled over in pain. The gave her a once over and dosed her with both morphine and fentanyl to control the pain. She went home the next morning and an appointment has been made up to finally arrange her surgery. Unfortunately, she has been unable to work since then. She's made some arrangements with Wally World -- where she will either be put on a leave of absence -- or be let go but be eligible for rehire once she has healed up. She also may have a job lined up with the state that starts in December. So, in addition to her health issues which are more than worrisome enough because abdominal surgery is never a sure thing and there is a possibility that her cancer has returned, she won't have an income while she is recovering. My father and I will help her as much as possible but I am worried whether it will be enough to pay her rent, pay her bills, and keep her fed. She might have help from other sources, but I don't know how much she can depend on them. Until it is all said and done, the next couple of months are going to be damned stressful as I worry about her and our finances.
Things are never simple, are they?