|Here I Go Again|
February 13, 2018
I met and fucked someone last night.
I know why, too.
Not only because I was bored, lonely and horny.
Dammit...I wish those were the only reasons.
Last night reminded me of 'Him'
In looks, demeanor and attitude.
I'm playing in dangerous territory with this one I think because I want to be with him again, but not because I like him that much....I want to be with 'Him'
"Him"....who I haven't heard from since November.
I know I'll never hear from him again, not at this point, and I miss him terribly.
I know there was no hope there. I'm realistic enough to know that distance alone prevented us from ever even meeting.
But we did have something special.
Or at least I had something special for him.
Evidentially, the feelings were NOT mutual, even though he told me they were.