December 6, 2017
Today went better. I got in an hour earlier than yesterday. I have to watch my time or they'll make me work a half day. The hardest part is the morning so forget that. I want the whole day off. I told the boss if I'm getting close and they are too stingy to give me overtime I am taking a whole day off. I've never had to do it but there is a first time for everything.
I got two plates of cookies from customers. At Christmas I always get tons and tons and tons of cookies. I don't know what I am going to do with these. I left some in my mailbox last week. I'll give some to the neighbors but I know she bakes. I need to find someone to give them all to. Maybe take a plate in to my mechanic. I could freeze them too. I'm not a big sweet eater so it is quite a quandary.
One customer gives me produce throughout the year. She left me a note saying she likes doing that rather than cookies because she knows I will get cookied to death. I need to remember to give her a thank you card. I printed off 36 tonight to start off with.
I fell asleep last night at 8 and slept darn well through the night. I had a dream I forgot to go to work and of course I couldn't find a phone to call in. Shortly there after my phone alarm went off so I got up just in case.
When I first started in this work in 2005 I had nightmares that I was working in the dark. That now is a reality. I carry a headlamp just in case as the light in the car isn't enough. Someone on FB had gloves with lights built into the forefinger and thumb. That is what this job is coming to.
Yesterday the boss asked me how I was doing, if I was feeling overwhelmed. I had two pumpkins full (a big orange cart) and no one else did. It didn't bother me at all, I didn't even think about it other than it sucks to be me
My last route was 1/3 smaller and so not a problem even on a bad day. This one will be interesting as a lot has changed since I worked there 4 years ago.
Fortunately I am mostly through the hormonal changes of "hysteria" and so now am able to just not get too excited. During "the change" though I thought I was going insane. Someone needs to explain to the world that this sort of fluctuation is NORMAL for a lot of women. No, easier to let us all think we are losing it and become suicidal such as in my case. Since then I find out I am not the only one. That is why it needs to be talked about, OUTLOUD. Like #metoo.