July 7, 2018
You ever wake up and realize (maybe even for the twentieth time for some) that your life is a mistake that when on too long?
Over 20 yrs...dysfunctional on both sides. We stayed. I forgave.
He's lied so many times in the past. Lies about small crap even. I had to get the truth b4 i ask him anything...dysfunctional..So I now say only him and God know the truth.
We are arguing because i cant believe his word 100%. How can I when the definition of trust is "ignore what i do" for over 20 yrs.
I tell him this will never change and we should divorce amiably.im not sure of his mind so he will have to leave first.
Needed to vent.