|Real food and week 2 weigh in|
October 6, 2020
Today has been a learning experience for sure.
First day of non-liquid food. I’m officially in the puree/soft food phase. This means smooth consistency or mashed and soft. So I decided I’d have a scrambled egg with a sprinkle of cheddar cheese for breakfast. As I was cooking this in my extra-small frying pan, I quickly realized that this was going to be way too much food for me. Isn’t that something? One scrambled egg used to look like a speck on a plate before this surgery. The entire egg fit nicely into my 2oz cup and I sat down with my tiny fork and was ready to eat as much as I could. The first bite was a test bite to see if it made me sick to my stomach. I took a bite the size of my finger tip and chewed and chewed and chewed until it was almost nothing in my mouth, swallowed, and waited for about 5 minutes to make sure I wasn’t going to get sick or anything. No problems at all. So I continued eating giving myself about 30-60 seconds between bites. After eating about half, I got this strange sensation. I can’t even begin to describe it because it didn’t hurt or feel like pressure and it certainly didn’t feel like my normal “full” feeling but I just felt different. So I stopped eating and put the rest away. WEIRD.
The old me would have wolfed that whole egg down in 2-3 bites and would be looking for something else to eat because that’s NOT enough. I’d be STARVING. But not this time. 1 oz of egg and cheese was it for me. And I wasn’t interested in much at all even when lunch time rolled around.
Now I get it how this can be a problem at this phase. If I only ate 1-2 oz portions of food (even if I could eat all 2 oz in one sitting) I am still going to have to find a way to get my protein in. 1 oz of scrambled egg and a tiny bit of cheese- I think that gave me 6g of protein and I need at least 60 ! So while I thought I was done with my protein shakes, I think I’m going to have to keep some of those on hand for a while. I had a shake for lunch so that gave me another 30g. It’s weird. Eating real food again tastes so good! But I really can’t do too much of it. I didn’t want to push it on my first day so… it is what it is.
I did some meal prep. I made the some mashed sweet potatoes last night with some added protein powder. I made cream spinach today with added protein powder (this turned out so good!). I’m going to be making some buffalo chicken salad thing later (again, with added protein powder) and something called “ricotta bake” with protein powder. These all get divided out into 2 oz cups with lids and stored in my fridge. That way I can grab and heat up something without having to think too hard about what to eat. OH! And the refried beans and guacamole (with added protein powder). I’ll be making those too. I should be set for quite a while with those things on hand. I think I’m going to have to start adding protein powder to my water that I’m drinking daily. That may be the only way to supplement until I’m able to eat more food.
Weight loss was slow for week #2. I only lost 1.2 pounds from where I was last week. And… I’m 100% OK with that result. I know that this is a slow process and frankly, 12.2 lbs in 2 weeks is pretty amazing if you ask me. I think once I increase my walking and let my body adjust, I’ll be fine. Right now, I’m just glad that I feel good and I’m able to tolerate the food progression without any difficulty so far. That in itself is a huge victory.
How am I feeling? Today I’m a little sluggish. I feel like I could take a nap. But work is keeping me busy and I definitely have ample energy to get me through the day.
Mentally/emotionally – nothing to report. I’m fine. I’m not feeling like a failure at home or at work (that’s always a good thing) and I’m not overwhelmed with a need to be doing everything perfectly. I spent a good amount of time today talking to my boss and he’s so great! I have the most supportive management at work. Both my bosses have been so encouraging and understanding throughout this whole process and they continue to show concern and support every step of the way. It’s so great. It really does help me rest easy knowing I’m not slacking at work or causing them any inconvenience. Today my boss reminded me how glad he is to have me on the team and how I’ve been doing such a great job since I’ve been here (almost a year). That really eases my mind. I know I’m a good worker. But my need for perfection sometimes undermines my confidence and wrecks my mental well-being. So… today I’m doing well.
It will be interesting to see how I do with my dinner food. I hope it goes as well as the breakfast meal went!