November 11, 2020
Well, as I said earlier, I was in my early 40s when I first started running the last time. I did the Couch to 5K (C25K) program the last time and it was definitely not easy… but I did it. It’s a training program that starts you off very slowly. For the first week (5x a week) you run 60 seconds then walk 90 seconds (repeat 8 times). Then the program gradually increases your running time over the next 9 weeks. It’s really awesome… or it was when I was 42 . I did the first workout last night and… let’s just say, I’ve got some work to do . The first thing I noticed was how the freezing cold night air was making my lungs burn. Then I noticed that my leg muscles were screaming for mercy. Then it became painfully obvious that my stamina is not what it used to be. The good news is – I completed the Day 1 workout. The bad news is – I had to shave off a few seconds on my running time because I wasn’t able to get my breathing back to normal in the 90 seconds of walking… which made the next run session really tough. I only cut a few seconds off of each run but still… it was a bummer that I wasn’t able to do the entire workout. But… I’m 50. I am getting about 6-700 calories a day. I’m still trying to find my way after surgery. So oddly enough, I don’t feel defeated. I’m going to keep doing the first workout over again until I can make it all the way through with no cutting corners. We will skip tonight because we have another errand to take care of, but tomorrow I’ll be back at it. I may try to do the workout during the day when the air isn’t quite as cold. We shall see… but I WILL NOT give up!
I had my appointment with my psychiatrist again today. I will have 1 last appointment with her for this year in December and then we’ll schedule for 3 months out. She seems pretty convinced that I’m holding up OK and my medications are working like they’re supposed to. That’s a great thing! I feel like I’ve been pretty stable, all things considered, throughout this process. We talked a little about the stresses of election week and she gave me some really good advice on how to deal with those tense and stressful situations with family and friends who have different viewpoints about the election. She reminded me that yes, while it is important to respect other’s opinions and feelings, I absolutely have the right to express my own opinions and feelings as well instead of stuffing in all of my frustration and letting it stew. Good point… and I have some thinking to do.
How am I feeling? Today I’m tired. I’ve noticed that lately I’ve been unable to go back to sleep once I wake up. Today, despite being off for Veteran’s Day, I was wide awake at 6:30 to pee. I went back to bed and TRIED to go back to sleep but, just as it has been for the past week or so, it was pointless. So I got up and started my day. Now I just may take a nap… because I can
Mentally/emotionally – I’m good. Nothing to report here.