|Wrapping up Thanksgiving Weekend|
November 29, 2020
OK – it’s official – I’m ready for a break from Holiday food. I froze the delicious turkey soup I made for dinner tonight. You can’t make just a little soup so of course I brought a huge container over to my sister’s house and my father, my husband and my son had turkey and dumplings tonight. It smelled DELICIOUS. I tasted a tiny bit of the soup part but I couldn’t eat much of that because I mixed some of the leftover stuffing in the broth so I didn’t want those carbs. And there was no way for me to measure the amount of turkey I would get in 1 serving (to count the protein) so I erred on the safe side and made some baked cod for me (which I LOVE). Most of the pies are gone (thanks to my son and husband) and whatever is left tomorrow when he leaves is going to go in the trash. There won’t be much left, I’m sure. Apparently the pumpkin pie turned out EXTRAORDINARY this year (thanks to pilsbury pre-made pie crust and the recipe on the back of the Libby’s can of pumpkin ) so I have NO IDEA why they were so special this year but everyone RAVED about it. But now my husband has had his fill, my son doesn’t love pumpkin and I am staying far away. I like pumpkin, don’t get me wrong… but it’s not THAT good that I’m going to risk it. So… we bid farewell to all the leftovers officially TOMORROW. The frozen turkey soup will be great for my dad and husband in a few weeks when they forget about it.
Over all, I did fine with my food consumption but for some reason the scale is showing that I’ve gained about a pound. I’m assuming this is water weight because I’m literally not eating enough calories to actually gain weight. I’m not stressed about it at all… it’s just a curious thing. Where I think I’ve missed the mark this weekend was with my protein and water. I know they say “eat your protein first.” Normally I do that. But there was such a variety of food this weekend and I wanted to taste everything and before I knew it, I was done eating. I did get protein in but the veggies were SO GOOD and I probably had more carbs than necessary too. So yes, I’ll be glad to get back to normal… well… my new normal. Today I did fine with everything (I’m finishing my last water now ) but I was busy decorating the Christmas trees so I didn’t get as many calories as I normally do. But I won’t worry about that. I made my protein goals and by the time I go to bed, I’ll have had all my water and my vitamins. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
This whole new way of life really requires some planning and organization. I know the not hungry thing won’t last forever. I’m sure eventually my body will remind me that I need to eat. But right now, it’s hit or miss. Sometimes I do get hungry but when I’m busy like today, it is way too easy to forget to eat. Then the water… and the vitamins… if I’m not careful, it is 9:00 PM and I’m behind on my intake. On my regular workday it’s much easier to manage. My food/water/vitamin schedule works fine with my work schedule so I know after my 9:00 AM meeting, it’s time to eat breakfast. Then after I run my reports or monitor deployments (depending on the day) then it’s time for lunch. Then when my husband gets home it’s time for dinner. Easy. But this holiday stuff and shopping and decorating really threw me for a loop.
I did find myself panicking a bit because I wasn’t “perfect” over the last couple of days. I did have to get a grip on my thoughts and self-talk pretty quickly and remind myself that although I wasn’t perfect, I was FINE. I really do have this constant nagging worry about messing up this opportunity to develop new healthier habits. Sometimes I feel like I’m eating too much. I am NOT eating too much. I literally cannot eat TOO MUCH. But if I eat more than the day before… I panic…it’s a mild panic but still… And if I don’t exercise nightly I worry that I’m getting too lazy and not taking this change seriously… and I panic. And if I don’t get in all of my protein and if I have more than 40 grams of carbs I freak out thinking I’m already back to old bad habits… and I panic. I have to keep reminding myself that I am LEARNING new behaviors after 50 years of bad habits. I need to cut myself some slack and just relax and make the necessary corrections without beating myself up. I’ve never been good at that. So that’s another level of effort involved in this journey.
How am I feeling? I’m SO TIRED. I was going non-stop today cooking and decorating and shopping. Now I just want to close my eyes and rest. My stomach has been a little off the last couple of days. My guess is that it has something to do with the increased veggies and carbs intake. Nothing major. I have been going to the bathroom a lot easier the last couple of days so that’s a good thing. The constipation is NO JOKE! And unfortunately with limited fiber and increased protein… and top that off with vitamins and iron supplements… yes – it’s not fun. But I hear that once I can handle more food at a time, I can increase my veggies which will help with the fiber situation.
Mentally/emotionally – I’m feeling tired in that department too. I think it’s just the holiday exhaustion. I’m content. Happy. Fulfilled. I’m definitely not feeling depressed. Just tired. I’m heading to bed soon so I’ll get plenty of sleep and time for my brain to rest. I have no doubt I’ll be ready for the new week!