December 11, 2020
So let’s talk about menstruation. All week I was noticing I wanted to eat EVERYTHING in sight. I wasn’t hungry but I just wanted to eat. Since surgery, that only happens a few days before my period. I checked my tracking calendar and my period wasn’t scheduled to start until toward the end of next week so I was sure something was weird. My stomach was rumbly all week. I didn’t feel terrible or anything but there was definitely some activity going on and I just figured it was due to the fact that I’ve been able to eat more vegetables in my diet lately (which I’m still THRILLED ABOUT). I had been having very easy BMs which was a relief… but my schedule was WAY off and I had a couple “emergency” situations when I was out shopping. That’s definitely not been the norm for me since surgery. So I wasn’t sure what was going on. Yesterday morning, it got particularly uncomfortable so I figured if there was no improvement I’d email my nurse just to be sure I hadn’t broken anything by consuming veggies Something was definitely weird.
Yeah… what was weird is I ended up getting my period about a week earlier than I was supposed to!
The good news – that explained the stupid cravings for anything I could find in the cabinets! The even better news is, aside from a couple of (small) bites of the Christmas candy that I’ve made this week and a few mixed nuts, I did manage to steer clear of most of the temptations. That also explained my tummy issues. This is all pretty normal for me right before my period. But when I wasn’t expecting my period for another week, I wasn’t connecting the dots. I know that this surgery can disrupt our cycles. I’ve heard quite a few women in my support group talk about this. THANKFULLY mine coming earlier than expected is tolerable. Some women have had dramatic changes in their cycles where they bleed every 2 weeks or they’re extremely heavy or painful or even CONSTANT. I would die. So mine came a few days early and here we are… with stupid cramps and the usual YUCK that comes along with my cycle. Ah well… at lest I know it’s not the veggies or my “broken” stomach It’s weird that I didn’t gain weight like I normally do before my period. I’m NOT complaining… trust me! But usually I gain a couple pounds of water weight leading up to the big day… but this time I think I’ve been pretty steady. Hopefully my Tuesday weigh in won’t disappoint.
I’m still really struggling with my water intake. I am managing to get in about 64 oz a day still, which is the minimum in my goal range. But there have been a few days where I’ve only gotten maybe 54 oz. I know… it’s not TERRIBLE and I’m probably not at risk for dehydration or anything, but it’s the habits I’m trying to change. And I don’t want to get into the habit of skimping on things even if it is just a couple of days out of the week. SO- about a month ago, I noticed that I’m actually pretty thirsty when I wake up in the morning. So instead of making my coffee (still decaf) first thing when I wake up, I grab a 16.9 oz bottle of water from the fridge and drink that first thing when I wake up, instead of coffee (which comes later). It takes me about 20-30 minutes to drink that water and then I’ve already got 1/4 of my water intake out of the way! THEN I make my coffee after I’ve finished the first water of the day. Well, that’s been helping some but not always enough that I reach my goal by bedtime. SO… this week, I’ve started grabbing the 33.8 oz bottle of water in the morning instead. It takes me about an hour or 2 to drink that entire thing but by 10:00 AM, I’m already done with half my water before lunch. So I think I’m going to keep that up as much as I can. I don’t understand why water is such a fucking struggle for me. I buy bottled water because our water here is not safe to drink – we live in a neighborhood that is in close proximity to an old plane servicing facility. They have warned us that jet fuel may have been improperly disposed of many decades prior to our homes being built, so they recommend we do not drink the water without filtering. I know… scary. But ANYWAY – I buy water so it’s not the taste that bothers me. I just am not a big water drinker. I’ve definitely gotten better about it since surgery but still – it’s a definite EFFORT on my part. So silly. But I’m working on it.
Food-wise, I’ve been doing well with my protein intake most days. Yesterday (day 1 of my period) I had no appetite so I ended up being short on my protein because I just didn’t want to eat any more. I had soup for dinner and I probably should have mixed in some of my unflavored protein powder to supplement but oh well. I will do better today. As I mentioned, I did take bites of the Christmas fudge and nut brittle that I made this week. I know it’s not a huge deal for me to have those empty calories but again, it’s the habits I’m trying to work on. Sugar is absolutely wasted calories and there is nothing beneficial (other than the taste) that comes from that. AND, the real problem for me, when it comes to carbs in general, is that when I eat some I want MORE. So while the few bites I had over the last couple of days haven’t thrown me off course completely, I do need to watch that because once the carb cravings start… it’s BAD. Again- it’s the habits I’m trying to work on. So I know to watch my intake in the next few weeks. We have cookie baking and more fudge making ahead so I need to have a plan in place! Oh the joys of loving food too much Hey- it’s what got me to being overweight in the first place. And just because the surgery restricts my ability to consume the quantities that I used to, it doesn’t fix the cravings (for me, anyway) or the mental aspect. That’s stuff I have to manage myself.
How am I feeling? Well- I have hideous cramps and I’m a bit tired – all normal with my cycle. My stomach isn’t rumbly anymore so no need to email the nurse I have been sleeping really well lately. I haven’t been always getting 8 hours of sleep because I’m up late watching my shows on my tablet but then I’ll be wide awake and ready to start my day at about 6:30 in the morning! Last night I watched 1 show and was asleep by about 9:30 and I slept HARD till about 6:30 and was up! That’s definitely a change since surgery. I LOVED SLEEP! I still do! But I find that I’m falling asleep much easier. No more melatonin or sleep aids. And I’m not one to sleep in for hours and hours on the weekends. I used to be.
Mentally/emotionally? Still holding my own. No concerns in this area for me. I have an appointment on the 14th with my psychiatrist and I’m guessing that’s going to be a short video chat. Not a lot to discuss really. Meds are working. I feel as “normal” as can be expected with all of the stuff that’s going on in our world. Between COVID shutdowns and the lingering election mess – I’m as sick of it all as the next person… but my brain seems to be processing it all without too much trouble. Let’s hope this keeps up.
Have a great weekend all…