Today is April 21, 2019
Join Now! | Home | Sign in | FAQ | Help
My One True Life by wayward heart
 
December 2002
1Winding Down // Ms. Fix-it
2Winter Wonderland
3Tuesday Tidbits and Soupsicles
4Care Bears and Christmas Preparations
5Holiday Favorites Survey
6i treasure every gifty // Sending Christmas Cards
7Sunshiny Saturday // Oh Doe...Dot a code id by doze....
8Restless Night
9(S)ick with the annual "itis"
10Forget "Chicken Soup"....
11Don't bother me, i'm taking a sick day
12A Thank You Note (and a reply)
13Friday Night Fluff
14Dreams are not enough
15 Drizzly, Dark, and Dreary
16The Baking Elf Arrives
17Quote Du Jour // Quiet Day, Quiet Night, Quiet Feeling
18Peaceful Solitude // Christmas Gift Dilemma
19Quote Du Jour // Merrily i roll along......
20Screw the Balls...and other Christmas Traditions // New Journalist
21Solstice
22Baccala and Christmas Themes // Just a big kid
23Quote Du Jour // What do you do with a Drunken Aussie?
24Last night's email correspondence // Quote Du Jour Holiday Wishes // One More Sleep Till Christmas
25A Very White Christmas
26Old Friends and other stuff
27Nothing much
28A Garbo Night
29Best of Both Worlds // The MochaMobile
30Christmas Came Again
31New Year's Eve Traditions New and Old


April 2019
March 2019
February 2019
January 2019
December 2018
November 2018
October 2018
September 2018
August 2018
July 2018
June 2018
May 2018
April 2018
March 2018
February 2018
January 2018
December 2017
November 2017
October 2017
September 2017
August 2017
July 2017
June 2017
May 2017
April 2017
March 2017
February 2017
January 2017
December 2016
November 2016
October 2016
September 2016
August 2016
July 2016
June 2016
May 2016
April 2016
March 2016
February 2016
January 2016
December 2015
November 2015
October 2015
September 2015
August 2015
July 2015
June 2015
May 2015
April 2015
March 2015
February 2015
January 2015
December 2014
November 2014
October 2014
September 2014
August 2014
July 2014
June 2014
May 2014
April 2014
March 2014
February 2014
January 2014
December 2013
November 2013
October 2013
September 2013
August 2013
July 2013
June 2013
May 2013
April 2013
March 2013
February 2013
January 2013
December 2012
November 2012
October 2012
September 2012
August 2012
July 2012
June 2012
May 2012
April 2012
March 2012
February 2012
January 2012
December 2011
November 2011
October 2011
September 2011
August 2011
July 2011
June 2011
May 2011
April 2011
March 2011
February 2011
January 2011
December 2010
November 2010
October 2010
September 2010
August 2010
July 2010
June 2010
May 2010
April 2010
March 2010
February 2010
January 2010
November 2009
October 2009
September 2009
August 2009
July 2009
June 2009
May 2009
April 2009
March 2009
February 2009
January 2009
December 2008
November 2008
October 2008
September 2008
August 2008
July 2008
June 2008
May 2008
April 2008
March 2008
February 2008
January 2008
December 2007
November 2007
October 2007
September 2007
August 2007
July 2007
June 2007
May 2007
April 2007
March 2007
February 2007
January 2007
December 2006
November 2006
October 2006
September 2006
August 2006
July 2006
June 2006
May 2006
April 2006
March 2006
February 2006
January 2006
December 2005
November 2005
October 2005
September 2005
August 2005
July 2005
June 2005
May 2005
April 2005
March 2005
February 2005
January 2005
December 2004
November 2004
October 2004
September 2004
August 2004
July 2004
June 2004
May 2004
April 2004
March 2004
February 2004
January 2004
December 2003
November 2003
October 2003
September 2003
August 2003
July 2003
June 2003
May 2003
April 2003
March 2003
February 2003
January 2003
December 2002
November 2002
October 2002
September 2002
August 2002
July 2002
June 2002
May 2002
April 2002
March 2002
February 2002

Solstice
December 21, 2002

In the bleak midwinter, frost wind made moan,
earth stood hard as iron, water like a stone;
snow had fallen, snow on snow, snow on snow,
in the bleak midwinter, long ago.

-- "In The Bleak Midwinter" -- text by Christina Rosetti, melody by Gustav Holst


It's finally Winter...so now all this cold and wind and snow is "official"....now that we've had it for a month already! So, Happy Solstice!!

i rather enjoy the whole idea of a Winter Solstice, and look at my Christmas tree in a whole new way. Now, the idea of an evergreen tree in the house makes sense...and the lights and candles and yule logs and such take on much more meaning. i love blending holidays, traditions, adding meaning and depth wherever i find it....the spirit of love and renewal certainly isn't peculiar to any single faith or tradition. Why not embrace them all??

Middle Earth beckoned me this morning, but it had snowed most of the night, and was still snowing when i got up. There's been a Lake Snow Advisory out all day, and though i don't live that close to the lake, it doesn't mean we won't see snow. So, not being as intrepid or adventurous as even a Hobbit....i stayed in. (except for the few minutes i spent shoveling the walkway)

i was going to clean the house, which needs it (especially the kitchen..what a disaster!). i did laundry, and talked to my parents for awhile...and then, well, i broke down and made the strufoli. It is, after all the Saturday before Christmas....and this has become a cherished tradition of my very own....

My grandmother's been gone for over 8 yrs now (nearly 9). The Saturday before Christmas will always be a special, bittersweet day for me.

My grandparents had sold their house that summer, and my uncle had used the proceeds to have an addition built onto his house for them. They had moved in October. They were making the best of the situation, but their hearts really weren't in it. It was hard for them to adjust to living in someone else's house, to not being "home". What Grandma missed most, was being able to cook.

My uncle's wife didn't want Grandma using the kitchen. Not to be mean, but because lately, Grandma had become more forgetful (like forgetting the stove was on), and she'd been losing her balance at times. So, i couldn't fault my uncle's wife, and she was as kind as possible about it (at least when anyone else was around).

We hadn't been to visit my grandparents very often. They'd been here for Thanksgiving, and i tried to call them every week or so....but it was a busy time of year....both at the day care, and with our church activities.

In fact, the Saturday before Christmas, we were supposed to do something (i don't remember what) with the church....but i decided to cancel. Mom had mentioned to me how much Grandma missed baking cookies, and "doing Christmas" (Christmas dinner was always at Grandma's...she LOVED Christmas), so i decided to have a Baking Day with Grandma...i wanted to get her recipe for the strufoli, and i thought they might enjoy a day out.

My uncle drove them over. i had all the ingredients ready, and i had put on a pot of coffee (Grandma HAD to have her coffee!). We chatted a bit first...then we got to work.....and boy did we ever BAKE!!! Grandma was in hyperdrive: "Let's make another batch!!!!", she'd say....

We made strufoli, and Butterballs (butter cookies with walnuts, baked in little balls that you roll in powdered sugar. i've heard them called Russian Tea Cakes among other things, but she called them ButterBalls). We made MORE Honey Balls...we made MORE ButterBalls...and still MORE....

We talked and baked, baked and talked....she was the happiest, most animated and healthiest i'd seen her in awhile. She was in her element, baking for Christmas. At the time, it seemed special, but in an 'ordinary' way....although, it was the first (and only) time she and i had ever spent time baking together for a holiday.

H took Grandpa shopping with him, even though Grandpa protested about being old, and slowing H down. H simply insisted on Grandpa going with him, saying he wasn't in a hurry. They came home in a great mood....and we all had supper together. Then, we drove them back to my uncle's.

We saw them for Christmas at my uncle and his wife's Christmas Eve/Anniversary open house, but not for very long. For the first time since moving upstate, we didn't spend Christmas Day with them that year.

Grandma turned 85 on Dec 28th that year. On Dec 31st, she went into a coma. Mom flew upstate, and we spent all of New Year's Eve Day, and New Year's Day in the ICU Waiting Room......Grandma never woke up, and she left us on Jan 6th.

i wonder to this day, if she'd somehow known that would be the last Christmas we'd have....that that day would be the last day we'd ever have together....i'm forever grateful that i listened to the voice inside me that urged me to take the time, MAKE the time to spend with her....despite all the other "important" things clamoring to be done. Had i missed that chance...the LAST chance, i would have such regret.....now, i have sorrow, and i miss her greatly, and most of all the Saturday before Christmas.....but i DIDN'T miss the chance to create a memory i will always cherish. i didn't miss the chance to spend time with her, and let her know i loved her. How much sadder i would be, if i had missed that Saturday....

Well, now that the strufoli are all honeyed, i really DO need to clean the kitchen, now that it's a sticky, greasy mess on top of everything else!

i've got laundry to fold and put away, too, and before i know it, H will be coming home from work.


 
Login to select
your favorite journals

PrevTopNext
 
 

Visit my Forum

© Website Copyright 2002 by My-Journal.com
© Journal Content Copyright 2002 by the Author
 
Terms of Service Agreement
 
Privacy Policy