January 25, 2011
Feeling: good tonight
Wow I never realized how hard it is for me to take time off work while sick. Last night I woke up in all night long from dreams from stress. Good lord what a bunch of crap. I should be able to enjoy the time off.......at least as much as the pain lets me. I had one dream that was really vivid. The part I remember is I was standing by the top of a BIG water fall....I mean like Niagara or the like. I was within a foot of the very top and was watching the water go over. It is hard to explain how scary it was. The power of the water running over the ledge and falling down. As I was standing there I saw someone had fallen in and I took a shovel I had and stretched the handle out as they washed by. They caught it and I pulled them in to the shore. Just after I did that I noticed seven guys standing there. First one just walked off the shore into the falls.....then three more then three more......HOLY CRAP!!! I jumped awake. I knew it was a dream but still I could not shake the feeling of shock at seeing seven people commit suicide.............ok now the truth is out.......I am truly nuts.
The day was good. I did ok at staying off my feet and did get some book work done. Taught the guy that works for me some more stuff and now I am done for the day. HOPEFULLY I will have a better night tonight.....
Things I am thankful for:
BBQ chicken wings
making my way one day at a time
learning each day