June 6, 2012
I have kind of fallen into a habit that is not like me. I get up at 5:30 to work out and am home by 7:00. I fix breakfast and then take a nap from 8:00 to 9:00? I mean I never take naps let alone take one in the morning like that. It is nice, don't get me wrong but just kind of strange. I do work out hard but still........
Things are flowing along. I had a guy I know come by and I made him some glasses in exchange for some work on my car. He is one of those kind of guys you have to watch. Not really dishonest but always looking for the angle to help himself. I am not the most trusting person in the first place but with him I really watch. He tried to pull a fast one and stuck his foot in his mouth. I did not bite. He back peddled and now I just told him to bring the car back. I hate looking over my shoulder all the time. Not a big deal. Learning experience.
I almost did cancelled the appointment with the therapist I have for tomorrow. What went through my mind was that it really didn't matter. I could live a normal life and just let this one go. Well I have found when I really don't want to do something it is time to do it. There is something I need to learn about myself that is uncomfortable for me. So I will go. Reluctantly but I will go.
Yesterday was a good day business wise. Nice people and some sales. I seem to be making mistakes lately. Mistakes that I make when I am distracted. When I am under pressure......not easy to explain. Mistakes when I am overwhelmed by something. Now I don't feel overwhelmed but I am still making the mistakes. I don't always acknowledge the stress in my life. I just keep going and pushing through to the other side. I am kind of doing that with the feelings I am having. Not scorching the earth and getting away from them but letting them have their time and deciding how I am going to acknowledge them........deal with them I guess. Kind of what I did with the city job and all I went through. I HOPE this time the duration is MUCH shorter!!!
Well off to do some work.
Things I am thankful for:
My flowers are doing well.
It is cool and sunny today.
Pretty women walking down the street in front of my place.