October 10, 2013
Had a dream last night about a women I dated briefly. I really liked being with her. Had fun but I was not attracted to her the way I would have liked to be with a girlfriend/companion. In the dream I said that to myself. She deserves to be wanted in that way. Not that sex was bad with her. Just something about her that was not………I don’t know just something.
Feeling good. Pain minimal and my walk on Tuesday night was a long one with my legs and hips holding up better than I could have hoped. Day off yesterday but today I walk again.
Talked to my son. Nice to hear his voice. Just every day stuff but sharing his life. It is something I need and want. I day dream sometimes of moving to his area and being closer. Not so I see him every day but weekly would be nice.
I appreciate the time I do have talking and seeing him.
Been using the tools to work on my weight and shame attached to things in my life.
Things I am thankful for: