November 25, 2013
Feeling: kind of scattered
Feeling odd this morning. Not real focused. Have not drank since last Thursday so alcohol is not an issue. Having some difficulty in staying out of the victim mode. Having thoughts that reinforce my feeling inadequate. Did some more work on the shade yesterday and it is coming along nicely. Did some shopping and went out to breakfast by myself. Blew the rest of the day off watching tv and napping.
Maybe this is just the way it will be with me? I mean the way I will feel from time to time. Maybe this is normal? You know I really do have a great life. I am sure most would not find it exciting but I really enjoy it. I am very thankful for it. I am not complaining here at all. I wonder why I feel like this when my life is the way it is? I have worked hard for this and it has paid off. I donít understand this.
Bought my son a toy for Christmas. No matter how old you are you always need a toy. One of those remote control helicoptersí. He will have fun with it until he busts it or his dog eats it. I canít wait to see him when he comes home. I hope the business will be going well enough that next year I can get away and see him.
Things I am thankful for:
Another day on this earth
Good nightís sleep
Feeling like doing things