November 29, 2014
I am human. I make mistakes. I judge too quickly sometimes. I assume from time to time. I even expect occasionally. My opinions are shaped by my past experiences just like everyone else s. I try every day to be a better man. Why am I writing this? I don't know really. Just seemed the be the thing to write this morning.
I look back over my life and see pivotal points that brought me to this place on my path today. Sometimes those points cost a great deal because of decisions I made. Most are without regret. I still feel I am on my way to some place I can't see yet. Some destination of sorts. Someplace good or happy or full of contentment. Can't put it into words.......this feeling/image I get. Maybe it is just hope disguised as something else. I would be okay with that. Hope is what has always pulled me though things. It has always been the one thing that let me shed the anger and helplessness I have felt at times. It has been the one thing that kept me from giving up.
I am stuck right now. Stalled. I want to lose weight but can't seem to make that happen. I get up in the morning and have a healthy breakfast. Lunch can go either way but dinner is the one that really goes down the crapper. This is not vanity that wants me to lose weight. I need to do it to feel better. I don't care anymore what my body looks like naked. I just want it to weigh less. I need it to weigh less. So why can't I seem to do this? Good question. So simple to do. Just stop eating so much. Exercise. So..........why can't I make this happen? Why am I choosing to not do it?
Things I am thankful for: