January 12, 2018
Feeling: sore but good
Unsettling dream last night. Can't remember it much but it has emotional energy so it must have been something I'm working on.
My friends father is now in Hospice. I hope it's fast and painless for him. I hope my friend had the opportunity to finish all his business with his father.
Pam worked here yesterday filing. She is upset because Sean doesn't contact her. She voices this with me. I told her many times I won't intercede for her anymore. This is a relationship she created. I don't feel good that he doesn't contact her. I wish he would be able to find a place for her in his life. That he would find peace in his heart enough to allow her into it a bit. He doesn't have to talk to her all the time. Just acknowledge her. Maybe some day.
I can't really say much......I had severed my relationship with my own mother after years of pretending. She was not a bad woman. We just never bonded. I grew up having no feelings for her. There was anger over that for a long time but eventually I reached a place I was able to let go. We still had not relationship but at least I wasn't carrying the baggage anymore. I told her I wished her all the best long before she died. It was just the life I had built did not include her and hers really never included me.
On to a better note.......weekend is here.
Things I am thankful for:
tonight I was able to overcome a part of the issue I have with people that feel entitled in my eyes. I say in my eyes because situations are relative, geared against your personal experiences. Old dogs can learn new tricks.....