February 15, 2018
Dreams last night. I dreamed that I had a loft space in an old building. Next door to my building was another old building that was built really close to mine. Someone was having a party and there were lots of people milling around on the roof next door. I had my windows open because it was hot and one of the people next door stepped across the gap and into my window. I yelled and they jumped back out. Next thing I knew there were more people jumping across. I yelled again and tried to get out of bed......and I actually tried to stand up while sleeping which woke me up. It was a very unsettling dream. I felt violated.
I'm not happy with myself right now. No that's not really true. I'm ashamed of myself right now. I need to lose weight not only to feel better and have a safer surgery but to simply take care of myself.
So I got up when the alarm went off. Made a healthy breakfast. Exercised. Would have walked outside but it's raining. Nothing crazy. Just start and make it a habit.
Things I am thankful for:
I wasn't able to stand up in my sleep LOL
being patient with myself
being kind to myself