March 17, 2019
I had my last interview 2 Friday's ago. Last Monday, I talked with the Talent advisor who stated they were going to make a decision by EOW.
I've decided to give up the control, or rather I'm trying very unsuccessfully. Truth be known, I don't really know what I want so the lapse in time is a great thing. But not hearing anything is a blow to my ego. That dreaded ego, that thing I never listen to even when everyone said - oh you'll get the offer. Ha! I'm trying to be okay if the offer doesn't come.
Additionally, I'm starting to freak out if in fact my position is eliminated. I've put my finger on it - I've never been fired before - EVER. E.V.E.R. I realize a restructure and job elimination, lay off whatever is not actually a firing but it's freaking me out really bad.
I hate being in limbo, I hate not being able to plan or execute my plans. I'm struggling.