|Fear and Consequence|
March 20, 2019
Interview 8 and 9 were today. Or rather are scheduled today. However, the 9th one was just canceled. Interview 8 is in 23 minutes. I've come to the realization, I don't really want to leave my current company. I'm angry and hurt that I may not have a choice. I know part of it because I am comfortable there. I've spent the last 13 years there - and I know when you get comfortable it's time to move on.
But I've always managed to find my self new roles in the company so I am not limiting my growth potential. *sighs*. I know I'm stressing for nothing at this moment. I don't have to make a choice right now. And I've been praying every night to God. I know I am trying to control this situation, talk myself into outcomes being okay instead of just trusting and having faith in Him.
I struggle with the old adage 'God doesn't help those who don't help themselves!" Ha, I think that saying was invented for those who will not give up control.
This fear is crazy and I know reacting to everything will have a consequence. My time at learning as leadership taught me this.