|What i want|
March 15, 2006
Im feeling really stalled, tired. Im not sure really why. I got the kids off to school this morning, picked up a little around the house, and laid down on the couch and slept most of the day. I got up once to get a blanket and then again to put a sweater, jeans and socks. Sooo cold. J is home, the other 2 will be home too soon and i just dont feel like doing anything, I don't want to deal with them, i dont want to cook dinner, no asshole man coming home at 730, i dont want the tv on, no video games, no talking, no chaos.... NOTHING!!!! I just want to be able hear the clocks on the wall ticking. I swear everything that goes on in this house revolves around what everyone else wants, not my wants, or needs. Just once it would be nice for someone to say hey, i do that for you, or hey, you want a cup of coffee, or hey want me to take the kids somewhere so you can do NOTHING? I dont get that. EVER.
Goodness, the choas is coming through the door. Anyone got prozac?