August 13, 2011
This month is literally flying by. I can't wrap my mind around summer being almost over, the weather has finally been wonderful and not killing us..
Bones has been gone almost a month. I can (and still do)lay down and cry my eyes out, thats how much I'm missing him. I still look for him EVERYWHERE, think about him everyday and then my mind drifts back to him laying in that fucking tool box, ready to be buried and then I'm slapped back into reality...He's Dead. His passing has left a huge hole in my life and it even shocks me how much I miss him. I don't feel like doing anything, and I really haven't besides going to work. Cleo's cute, and fun but She's not Bones. I don't feel that connection with her. I think maybe it was too soon to get her (at least, for me). I just can't believe he's gone.
Wyatt is here for the weekend. Dave picked him up thursday evening. He's the only shining spot around here anymore. This summer has really sucked. The kids stay up all night and then end up sleeping the day away. Dave and I, all we do is nit pick, and I'm tired of it. We aren't speaking at the moment, all because his Bipolar rules everything. Thank goodness he's at work today. Wyatt and I are relaxin' in front of the TV. Eventuall I'll need to venture out to Walmart, the cupboards are empty. We were going to get groceries last night but Dave started his shit in Walmart, so I was forced to make a scene, dropped the F bomb a few times and walked out, so white trash, I know. I really think I need to talk to a therapist.